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i am here. for you.

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You should not attempt this on your own. Reach for my hand and I will walk with you.

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July 15, 2009 at 4:35 am

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lead the way on

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Will you tell me what this life is all about


Will you show me how to make my time here count


Will you lead the way on, to the other side


Because I want to feel alive


The Afters, Forty-Two

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July 9, 2009 at 5:58 am

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what is this?

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I was told today that I can either be a simple bystander, or I can fight to stand up for what I think is right.

This was not said in reference to anything more than work-related drama (and was advice given by the least reputable source), but I read into it as I usually do read into things, and turned it into this: I have been thinking that exact thought for the past few months. About what I’m doing with my life. About how I’m fulfilling my purpose (or how I am not fulfilling my purpose). This is the 2nd time in two days that someone has said to me almost exactly what I have been thinking for so long. That I can either stand outside the fire or I can jump in and try to pull a couple of people out, if you will. But… of course no one gives me the answer.
Am I just, as I said, reading into this? Or is He speaking to me? I don’t want to ignore this.
Do I leave this meaningless, unfulfilling, dead-end job for something with purpose? What would that be? Something unpaid, I’m sure. Right? But would that matter? Probably not really, but… food? Clothes? Diapers? Would I have to move my family? No, we couldn’t do that. And I’m not experienced enough for a mission. I don’t know enough. I couldn’t lead anyone out of anything. I’m not strong enough – I get angry and flustered and I feel ashamed. I don’t have enough doctrine, I… but still He pulls on my heart-strings.
Is this just what I want? Something to make me feel like I have a purpose other than what I am doing now? Do I just have this need to feel more important or something? Or is this what He wants? How am I supposed to know?! I can’t make a huge decision and then find out that, no, this wasn’t His plan after all, it was mine. Is there something I’m supposed to be doing that maybe isn’t so dramatic as quitting my job and becoming a broke servant?
What is this?

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July 9, 2009 at 4:28 am

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stuck in a system

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It’s like you got to walk like him

Got to talk like her

Got to be like them

Everybody knows you follow the crowd

Or get singled out…

We’re stuck in a system

Is there anybody different?

Is anybody listening?

Is anybody listening?

Everyone has their own sound

Let it out now

Let it out now

There’s nothing wrong with living loud

Let it out now

Let it out now

Leeland, Let It Out Now

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July 9, 2009 at 3:47 am

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how to pray

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4God wants everyone to be saved and to know the whole truth, which is,


5There is only one God, and Christ Jesus is the only one who can bring us to God. Jesus was truly human, and he gave himself to rescue all of us. 6God showed us this at the right time.

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July 8, 2009 at 5:37 am

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understood

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John 16:12

12I have much more to say to you, but right now it would be more than you could understand.

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July 8, 2009 at 5:29 am

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psalm 119

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I have a hope you don’t have.


14Obeying your instructions brings as much happiness as being rich. 15I will study your teachings and follow your footsteps. 16I will take pleasure in your laws and remember your words. 17Treat me with kindness, LORD, so that I may live and do what you say. 18Open my mind and let me discover the wonders of your Law. 19I live here as a stranger. Don’t keep me from knowing your commands. 20What I want most of all and at all times is to honor your laws. 21You punish those boastful, worthless nobodies who turn from your commands. 22Don’t let them sneer and insult me for following you.

35Direct me by your commands! I love to do what you say. 36Make me want to obey you, rather than to be rich.

80Let me truly respect your laws, so I won’t be ashamed. 81I long for you to rescue me! Your word is my only hope. 82I am worn out from waiting for you to keep your word. When will you have mercy? 83My life is wasting away like a dried-up wineskin, but I have not forgotten your teachings.

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July 8, 2009 at 5:06 am

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